The bike ride never actually happened yesterday. I had my biking helmet on, my cell-phone ready. Then one of my mom’s cousins stopped by to talk with my mom about the funeral and such, and suddenly I didn’t feel much like biking any more.
Instead I called up Nicole, and we spent the day with thoughts and memories of my Memere. We went for a 4-mile walk and I felt this strange sense of peace but sadness all at the same time. I was so glad to have someone to share the day with me, because I honestly don’t feel like being alone right now. Too much time to think.
It’s funny, I didn’t feel much like cooking yesterday (I would have been perfectly happy serving cereal for breakfast, lunch and dinner to be completely honest!), but somehow I feel happiest and most content when I’m in the kitchen. I think it’s simply because of all the memories that I have of my Memere hustling around the stove and kitchen counters that makes it comforting somehow for me to do the same. So last night when I made my family pork chops, it felt right.
Cold cereal for breakfast!
It was a delightful mixture of some of my favorite mix-ins:
- 3/4 c. Natures Path Blueberry Cinnamon cereal
- 3/4 c. Kashi Heart to Heart
- 2 T. wheat bran
- 1 banana, sliced
- 2 T. walnuts
- sprinklin’ of coconut
- 1 tsp chia seeds
Bear with me over this next week—I’m a little scattered and jumbled, but it’s kind of my way of getting through this all.
Thanks again for all the prayers and thoughts.
Running To Slow Things Down 
my thoughts are still with you and your family – i know it’s tough 😦
i’m glad you had someone to spend the day with. i’m the same way when i’m down – i want any sort of company, as long as i’m not alone. and also go through the same cooking dilemma – i don’t want to, but know if i do, i will feel MILES better. i think as soon as measuring cups get picked up, and the calming sounds of whisks and chopping food starts, everything seems a little bit better.
oh i am just not catching up with your posts…..so sorry. i totally know how you feel. it is so hard to do things when you are that sad. take the time to be sad. my thoughts are with you during this tough time.
Still thinking of you and your family…it always makes me so grateful to have the support of a family during tough times. Glad you had a nice walk with your sister. 🙂
Also, your cereal bowls always make my breakfast pale in comparison.
Big hug to you and I’m thinking of you and your family…
x Julia (Taste of Living)
Awww, sweetie…
I´m so sorry about your loss!
I´m glad you´re able to remember the wonderful moments you spent with her. It´s the best you can do 🙂
I´ve got you and your family are on my prayers.
Take care, love!
Brazilian XOXO´s,
Gabriela
Aw I hope you’re doing okay. Long walks with great companions are so therapeutic. Surround yourself with great people and happy memories. Take all the time you need to process it all. Hugs.